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[29 Aug 2005|09:55pm] |
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I guess that I didn't mean anything to you.
I guess that you will toss me away as if I am nothing.
I guess that you will look down upon on me.
I guess that it was all a lie.
I guess that you don't even know your own morals.
I guess that you don't even care.
I guess that it ain't no big deal to you.
I guess taht I don't meaan a thing to you.
I guess that it was all a big scam.
I guess that I was used.
I guess that you laugh about it.
I guess a lot of things that I guess I shouldn't guess.
But...
I still guess...
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| Burn Me To A CD PLEASE! |
[24 Aug 2005|12:37am] |
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You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.
Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.
You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.
A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.
You are good natured and people enjoy your company.
You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you. |
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[21 Aug 2005|12:44am] |
Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: yes
Do you own any black clothing?: Yes
Do you think about death often?: no
Do you want to die?: no
Are you a social outcast?: No
Are you pale?: no
Do you like Hot Topic?: yes
Total YES: 3
--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard?: longboard
Do you wear Vans?: yes
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: yes
Do you listen to punk bands: yes
Do you have any piercings?: yes
Do you wear/like mohawks?: yes
Total YES: 5 1/2ish
--Prep--
Do you say the word "like": yes
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no
Are the A&F models hot?: yes
Rock music is bad, right?: no
Do you want to be in a sorority/fraternity?: no
Into jocks/popular girls?: no
Are/were you a cheerleader?: yes
Total YES: 3
--Hippie--
Is your hair long?: yes
Are you a vegetarian?: no
Do you own a tye~dye shirt?: yes
Do you want peace?: Yes
Do you want to save the animals?: yes
Do you think the war is unneccesary?: Yes
Total YES: 5
--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?: no
Do you own "bling bling"?: no
Do you wear do-rags?: No
Do you like hip-hop?: yes
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: No
Do you like afros?: kinda
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: Yes
Total YES: 2 1/2
--Emo--
Do you cry often?: no
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: no
Are you emotional?: yes
Do you like soft music: Yes
Do people not understand you?: no
Do you write your own songs?: no
Is your hair dyed dark?: no
Total YES: 2
--Jock--
You play sports?: no
Are they important to you?: No
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: no
Do you like football?: watching it
Was the person you bullied a total dork?: no
Total YES: 1/2
--Surf Bum--
Do you surf?: No
Do you wear flip flops year-round?: sometimes
Is your hair shaggy? no
Do you wake up at 6 or before every morning?: no
Do you own any pairs of shorts?: yes
Are you tan?: no
Total YES: 1 1/2
--Geek--
Do you wear glasses?: no
Do you get good grades? kinda
Do you use an inhaler?: no
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no
Are you on the computer often?: Yes
Do you ever get picked on?: yes
Total YES: 2 1/2
I totally stole this from Kisah! Much Love.
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| The Forever Dreaded Night, by many |
[17 Aug 2005|06:00pm] |
After a terfull night, I lay my dried eyes to rest. Thinking that I truely have the greatest friends in the world. Through all of our shit, thick through thin, they are the greatest. And well-well worth it! I leave behind some amazing and remarkable people. People who I think make me blessed to of shared the great times that I have shared with them. I have so many great people around me - and I realize it now - at the last second. Thats okay though.
Ahead of me lies darkness because I can't see what will happen. But it's okay for some reason. I have that much confidence, and I'm glad for it. Thanks to them... Much Love.
After reading all the notes I wrote this in my journal, so here's to ya'll! :) <3
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| And it was down to One... |
[26 Jun 2005|06:57pm] |
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James is back from the beach. Whitley is the only one away now. :( Everyone tye-died their shirts yesterday. I missed out cause I was at work. sucks but work is money. I feel like I include people some times, but other times I dont feel included. I try not to judge or assume, but I'm tired of bullshit. I wish I was away...
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[24 Jun 2005|02:29am] |
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[22 Jun 2005|12:59am] |
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Look into my eyes
You will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart
Search your soul
And when you find me there, you'll search no more
Name that song~>
I got a new job. Yay! I hung out with emily and loren tonight, had an awesome time. We went to the brewery. I saw an old friend shari there, that girl is a sweetheart.
I want James and Whitley to come back from being on vacation. I talked to James today actually, he is having a wonderful time which makes me happy because he needs some time away from his friends and all that shit, and needs more time with his family. But still! He needs to come back pronto!
I want to hang out with kelly. Maybe sooon, reeaaaaal soon!
I love how me and Jay have started to hang out again, its just like the olden days. I miss that kid, and I just talked to him 90 mins ago.
I still have the biggest crush. I should just give up, but deep down I know i can't. I haven't yet and I dont think i am ready to. Instead, I'll just hold all my feelings inside, take a day by day. It sucks to not be able to have someone, someone that special too. :( All well. well its not well it BITES, but hey!~Make it REAL.(song)
In my last entry I said something like fuck everyone else, it definetly was not towards everyone. Who it was towards, well they know it.
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[19 Jun 2005|01:02pm] |
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Love is in the air. I just wish that I'd find mine, or it'd find me. Sometimes I think I already found it, and that its right there, but there is no way that I can grab on. Props for all the girls out there who are happy with their boys, I wish I could share that feeling.
Went to Charlotte. Great Experience. I can't wait to go. I am so excited! But I just dont know how I am going to leave my friends. Will they hang out with me when I come back, Will they still want to? Will I be different? Will they? Will he? kill all the questions- its soo much easier not to worry about it but when the time comes,
GOD ITS GONNA SUCK~!
I care so much for this group. There is nothing fake. Theres no one telling me secrets in my ear. No voice whispering in my ear, persuading me to do something. No influence. I love it. And I am happy. And fuck all the others :)
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[09 Mar 2005|09:04pm] |
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I am glad that we are coming closer as friends, I just hope that nothing ends it. Now that I know you for you, I feel like I can relate to you in a lot of similar ways. Its nice to have a friend like you there for me to talk to. It seems that you are always there. You are one person that I can have a silent moment with and it wouldnt be awkward, cause it never has been.
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| Where will the Clouds Rain Bubbles? |
[01 Feb 2005|02:22pm] |
1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
3. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
4. Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. Put this in your journal.
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| Let the beat Carry you away, Let your mind sway, Let your body fly |
[29 Jan 2005|12:11pm] |
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There have been some awesome additions made to my life. First this most excellent computer that I am typing on. ( to be honest it is the only reason why im posting ) Next, i got a new whip!! True its not all mine, My brother has to share it with me but hey I'm lovin it~~
This week was crazy. It sucks when it gets to the point where I can't distinguish what happened from this night to this night and who was where which night. As confusing as that all sounds its even worse when I try to figure things out. So while i wont try on that i will tell you some things that happened~
One school morning with Brian, Mandy, Chestah, Russ, & myself, we were driving with the moist on the roads and the rainy clouds in the sky. Then- a RaInBoW sighting occured. It started, from what it looked like, harris teeter and ended somewhere near greenhope. We all strapped in as we went for this crazy chase for the other end of the rainbow. Maybe if we could stand underneath it would rain skittles? *Taste the rainbow* we pulled up infront of the school and then as fast as we saw it, it disappeared :( but i still saw it ;)
One school afternoon with Brian, James, Chestah, and meself, we went off roading on Old Place, by green level and shit. So we make it across this gigantic 2 ft deep sloshy, gooky mudd puddle with our front tires. "I don't think I should be putting my back tire in that ditch," Brian said as the car slowly crept forward - SLAM! and the back tire sunk into the fuckin puddle. we got stuck. it was cold. me and james went for a hunt in the woods. only for logs tho psssh :) (logs to put under the tires for traction/support/some car lingo word goes here/yanno?) We eventually got pulled out by Brutis (broutor? w/e) and that was yet another adventure with Brian.
I got a new seating chart in class, i finally sit in the back to do nothing but draw all day. sweetness, its bliss <3
Friday morning as i was walking out to Brian's truck I saw it backing into my driveway and heard an ugly sound come out from the exhuast. then it dies :( it was such a shock, such a surprise. wierd. but i got to drive me car to school which was cool. then i took advantage of having a car, since i will never prolly be able to drive to school again, and skipped 3rd to eat lunch w/the gang and then came home early, napped, took resin hits w/ james, played hack w/ him and aj, hours later got my car, and had a pretty cool chill night with the bois: aj, james, and starbuck. Also got to see ned tee hee. met up with Jay willard at some point of the night, really nice to see him again!! Chilled w/ Duncan, Fidday, Kleen, Danielle, Patty, and Weiman, and prolly other heads, for a while so good to see everyone, honestly it made my night to just sit on the couch and just carry on a 3 minute conversation with any one of those people. <3M.
This morning I woke up to a quiet house. I figured my parents were out, not to sure, but in the end they were. I took advantage of the peacefulness and packed a head bowl while laying in bed. I had everything right there, arms reach style. SLICK. put the blanket over my head and laid in my waterbed to chill. then as i breathed in the haze i passed out woke up and good morning sunshine!!
much love to everyone,
Jennay
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| I can only imagine what its like... |
[18 Jan 2005|04:59pm] |
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Mornings with Brian are always interesting. There's always many laughs and many smokes. I only wish I had the afternoons with him too :( Being forced to go to school today, I amused myself with drawing, thinking, and sleeping while being babysat for three periods long. Hey man, whatever works right?
::Poor Otto, Poor, Poor Otto::
When I was a little kid I use to be afraid of the toilet hole. Its all dark and scary, plus it went away once you sat down - who knows what kind of nasty/grimy thing could come up and nip ya in the ass?
So answer me this: When I was a little kid I use to be afraid of....
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[09 Jan 2005|01:32pm] |
SweetChica8756: i feel food is all i talk about these days, but it was sooo good
WillyWonka25 signed off at 1:26 P.M.
this was the last thing i said to danielle....
T*T*T*Tahaha!
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[08 Jan 2005|04:36pm] |
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
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| Grounded in Chains to my House :( |
[29 Dec 2004|11:42pm] |
I think I say the word really too much. Someone would be like hey i had spaghetti and i always reply, "really, thats great!" it needs to quit.
mesagesfromkleen: staircases are tricky, you fall when you least expect it, and u can fall going up or down
that is so true. so so true.
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| ~Happy/Merry ChristMaHanuKwansiKa 2 U~ |
[28 Dec 2004|07:47pm] |
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This Christmas didn't feel the same as it usually does. That upsets me because usually I am all about some X-mas spirit, but this time around I was without that, and I'm not sure why.
Besides that I recieved some truely *GREAT* gifts.
It was amazing as to how my 2 girls surprised me with their gifts, they were both awesome, How did they know to get exactly what I wanted when even I didn't know it? :)
My wonderful, and still disappointed, parents got me a sleek, and not so big, leather jacket.
Along with all the scarves, hats, CD's, shirts, and other articles, I was very happy in the end with all the gifts. And I'm pretty sure everyone loved the gifts I got for them too :) So the exchange was a good one.
Mom went all out just like I knew she would with the X-mas food, and made the family tradition x-mas dinner, John Mosetti, yummy, cheesy, pasta dish.
And god damn those addicting m&m dishes my mom puts out. Dont even have one, seriously. :/
Anyway, ::Merry Christmas to All, And to All a Good*Night::
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| ... The whole ten Yards ... |
[09 Dec 2004|03:02pm] |
I stole this from Jett's lj and wanted to do one. have fun for the 10 of youses ;)
1) I wish that you could see the way you use people. Even if someone uses another with good intentions at heart, it hurts 10x more when You do it. Its more than just a daily routine, its every second that goes by, every breath inhaled, and every word spoken. You are experienced in many Life's-Lessons, and never think twice to share them and give advice to others. I love that. But I dont like having to think twice whenever i want to talk about anything to you.
2) I wish I could remember the old days when we were together all the time. I guess I still need to catch up on those memories cause they are long gone. I think that your a little stuck up, bossy, and opinionated on E V E R Y T H I N G. but its my fault that were not friends. to tell you the complete truth, I dont want to be friends with you just because I should be.
3) Your so easy to talk to i dont have to say a word. We always know what the others talking about and our convo's~ there just to much for my stomach to take!! too many haha's. I think you carry so much potential, I can tell you are so much more - I may say this all the time but I know its true. You are so much more than what others realize and so much more than what you realize. I love you for your generosity, caring, understanding, comical humor, smartness, this could go on for E*T*E*R*N*I*T*Y but you know all this and i hope to know for a long long time <3
4) i LoVe YoU so much. You were the funniest person and could always cheer me up. You were sweet, and your always there for me. To this day, there is so much more that I could say about you ... but it all lies in the past. its sad i MiSs YoU more than you even know :'(
5) I can tell you anything. its so nice to have that cause whatever i say it will never make me feel awkward, guilty, embarassed, or anything. I can just talk to you. I hope to always be there for you.
6) I dont think that you know this, and i wish you did, but i really do love you. And its everything that comes along with ya! Your funny ass umbrella dances, or random n*$$er outbursts, your rationalization, the fact that your so real, everything about you i love. I wouldn't change a thing, that sounds so I'mTryingToBeNice comments but i really mean it. You wouldnt be you if it was any different. I wish you knew I'm always there for you. Always.
7) If i had to describe you in one word i would say youthful. Its in a good way the way i see it. I always see you smiling and happy, its one of the biggest things i love about you. I hope you never change, and i hope we hang out more :-*
8) I want so much more out of life for you. You may not deserve it or you may, thats not for me to decide or i dont know, but i do know that i want so much more out of life for you, and if i had to give it all up, for you i would- I love you that much.
9) Your my little joy in life. My little ray of sunshine. Your a wild and sweet girl. I wish i could fast forward and see your senior days just like you got to see mine ;)
10) this is to you - I love you.
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